异次元 No.2

第二次异次元事件发生在工作的时候
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坐在电脑前回复客户依猫
刚好收到一位很特殊的客户回邮
其实她没有恶意
见过她本人也很有礼貌
只是她在依猫上的表达方式很让人……
怎么说?叹为观止
就是为了让你多注意她的货物船期所需要的报关文件准备
而在回邮上粗字体红字体斜字体划线大字型
她没有骂人的意思
可是看回邮的人很有被骂的感觉

按照平时是不会很在意
可是那天的工作很多很吃紧
一宗接一宗
打电话和厂商沟通及回复客户邮件是同时进行

然后看到这样的回邮时候
崩溃了
手起刀落在键盘上噼里啪啦的骂回头
爽!send
……sent

忽然察觉这样是不对的
惊惶失措
…………
然后赶快打开Outbox希望可以截邮
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然后发现
刚才根本就没有回复过什么依猫

本来下一个约见是在3月12号
异次元No.1发生后就打算提前
可是记得Dr.Norley说她12号之前不在
所以就想等一等

异次元No.2发生的时候觉得不能等了
所以今天见到的不是一向看的Dr.Norley

和代班的医生说了这两件事之后
她觉得说这是工作压力太大
导致我们的脑子在一定程度的受压之下shut down了

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感觉像不像电脑当机?
像极了

Dr. Aisha说让我27号回去见Dr.Norley
“She has been seeing you from the beginning, she will be the best person you can talk to.”

于是27号还要去一趟的
就算是自己已经知道答案
也感觉这就应该是答案

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说一下另一件事

后来见了Dr. Aisha
一位看似学生的女孩过来有点犹豫的想和我说话
看看她胸前挂的牌子是马大大学生
我用鼓励和询问的眼神看看她点头
然后她不好意思的说她是学生正在做一个research

嗯嗯……在马大医院常常会遇见这样的大学生
我是谁?
尽管最近常常会自己找不着北
但是心里永远是个很好心的aunty
所以我说好啊
于是她和她的导师(忘记名字)一起访问我

然后……然后……问了我好几个问题
比如
……不很记得了
不过最记得的是那导师先说抱歉然后问我:
会不会曾经想过结束自己的生命
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Then, already feel a bit emotional me started broke down and cry

9 thoughts on “异次元 No.2

  1. 双喜妈妈。
    双喜妈妈。
    双喜妈妈。来来来。
    很多年前,大概5年前,我记得我很白目,我对妍妍束手无策,我育儿的经验实在糟透了,举目无人啊我很彷徨无助,怎么办呢怎么办呢。我就误打误撞之下遇见了你,你可能忘了我却记得一清二楚,你依猫给我如何煮辅食你依猫给我孩子发烧是小事还有你的鼓励,我打印了出来给我先生看,看看,这是双喜妈妈教我的。你是我人海茫茫的浮木啊。我真爱你。
    双喜妈妈,双喜妈妈,你是最好的。
    哭吧哭吧,我什么都不会,我陪你哭。

  2. youlgo,她有吓到的,可怜的孩子。

    伊利,是有酱的事,可是我忘了对象是谁,可能是对象有点多的关系(好心的aunty)。

    ————————————-
    不如我不要叫双喜妈妈了,就叫“好心aunty”,不过听起来有点像“好心你啦……aunty……”

  3. 看了这帖,我也想哭。。你有太大的压力和包袱。。。说出来,写出来,找个人谈谈心,有帮助的。。。

    加油!!

  4. My most recent emotion breakdown was when I spoke to a lawyer about my divorce. Think that was about two/three years ago. I was calling to enquire on the rates and procedure. Somehow in the conversation, the phrase “leave you in a lurch” casued me to brokedown. It was strange. I wonder it was the timing of all my build-up emotions (unrealised) or it was the phrase. It was somehow like a magic word. I have to quickly end off the phone call and I started crying. I couldn’t stop for a while and I don’t know why.

    I remained depressed or maybe even more depressed, I can’t remember. Until once, I was with my best friend. I asked him how have I been like. He said, “Unhappy”. It suddenly came to me that I have been depressed for all these years (well, sounds like a lot but perhaps 3-5 years?). I then told myself that I want to be happy. I’m never an advocate of those positive thinking, feel good seminar and now still don’t. But for once, I realised I need to & I want to be happy again.

    Am I happy nowadays, yeah, sometimes, sometimes sad. I like to think that I’ll find happiness if I meet someone I like and settle down with a family. By the way, being happy & happiness is a different thing. I would say happiness is a joy, something inside and it’s lasting. For example raising your kid. No doubt there are the ups n downs, but on the whole I think you agree with me that that is happiness 🙂 This is one thng that I believe God has bless us with. And about being happy, it describes the feeling at the moment.

    May God shine on me. And you too which I see you already got more blessings than me :p

    I think the level of stress in your job maybe beyond you. It could be a build-up over the years also. Perhaps switching to another job help? Or mayb take a weeks leave and rest?

    Love you and keeping you in prayers 🙂

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